Insane

It was a long night,
Staring blankly in the darkness ruffled up in thoughts.
obscure thoughts in my head , things i have lost .
things i have yet to lose,
things i can never lose ,
things i wish to lose ,
things which are of no use.

Looking back ,
In my path i find emptiness profound.
those times i have plummeted straight to the ground
times i have tried to rise again ,
times those trials failed again,
times i still tried to rise - again ,
times- i have lost count of them.

Looking ahead ,
It takes considerable strain to view whats in store.
Given the pattern for the last years i bore .
guess i will try once more,
guess i will fail once more,
guess finally nothing 'll remain,
guess in the end i turn insane.